Bad Dream

I had a horrible dream about you last night.
Your fat body was crushing me 

and I couldn't get away from your old-man aftershave/sweat smell.

It made me feel sick inside 

and even more sick when I woke up 

because it was one of those dreams where you suspect it might've been real 

but talk yourself into believing that it wasn't.
I don't have to talk myself into believing the regret I feel, though.

That's very real. 

And if you knew you were still haunting me,

your happiness surrounding the situation would be even more real

and equally as sick

as I feel.